After 18-years of teaching, and 14-years of being an entrepreneur with multiple streams of revenue, I have made the decision to simplify and put all of my eggs in one basket. This is both frightening and exhilarating, as I step onto the precipice of a whole new chapter in my life.
The beginning of the end came last year, when I finally decided to close my family’s yoga studio. Once that gut-wrenching decision was made, I found peace with it, but surprisingly found myself with a whole new laundry list of questions that sparked an inner-firestorm of self-inquiry, honest reflection, and sobering realizations.
My journey through the last 3-years has transformed me, and there’s no going back.
I remember the moment when the decision became crystal clear. I was sitting at the cottage dining room table with my mom and a dear friend after dinner one evening in late August. That whole day, a battle had been raging within. My ego was hurling bombs of half-truths, self-limiting beliefs, and feelings of separation and worthlessness. The pressure became too much to contain and after dinner, the floodgates burst open and streams of tears and words began to flow. I freely shared what had been going on internally and was met with compassion, understanding, wisdom, and encouragement. After hours of conversation, the smoke began to clear and I was finally able to see the path ahead.
When I arrived back home, I was a woman on a mission. For 2-weeks, I cleaned and cleared out all of my spaces of everything that was no longer a fit. Yesterday, I had a garage sale, where I sold a lot of stuff, gave some stuff away, and burned the rest.
It is now Sunday afternoon, and I am sitting at my desk in my office, where I can still smell the remains of yesterdays fire. When I look around, the only things that are left are my jewelry making supplies, including some new tools, spools of Sterling Silver, Turkish Brass, Copper, and a plethora of new gemstones from around the world (Emeralds, Sapphires, Rubies, Opals…). I’m feeling so inspired. I have chosen to go ‘all-in’ on myself, single-pointed in my focus, following the inner-promptings of the Holy Spirit.
Today, Love has found me right where I am; at the end, and the beginning. This is new territory for me and I am so stoked for the adventure ahead.